If there is one thing I hate, its watching others be in pain. There is only so much I can take. I try so hard to be a good friend, so hard to let my friends know that I am there for them, so hard to comfort them when they need it, so hard to help them to be happy. And what comes of it? NOTHING. I still get ignored, I still get pushed away, and I still feel alone. Its feel like my friends want nothing to do with me, but I know that’s not true, or at least I hope it not true.


I literally worry myself sick over things. I just want to know for sure, who really cares, and who is just taking me for granted. I wish I felt appreciated, like I was actually doing something to help my hurting friends. But I can never know until I am clued into what is actually going on. Until then I’ll remain USELESS.